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i"m gonna dying
i"m gonna dying
i"m gonna dying
i"m gonna dying
i"m gonna dying

i wanna die
i wanna die
i wanna die
i wanna die
i wanna die

My Satelite

that's almost one week i can't handled on smartphone .. any big mistake came in my line? ah i guesss...
Udah beberapa taun gue ga punya apa apa dan gue akuin itu , bukanlah hal besar jika jam cinderella ditambah dua jam lebih pagi untuk bekerja yeppp nothing at least.
Buat referensi ajasih gue emang kadang sombong dan gamau kebuka tai yaa gimana mau kebuka gue takut salah kalo lagi deket sama seseorang apalagi itu aaah sudalah ini seperi 90 kidd cuman modal diary ga pegang hape bedanya sekarang agak digital ajasih.
Taun berganti taun tapi gue ga temuin satu arti pun sampe gue nulis post regular ini juga gue ga dapet apa apa. Pokonya ntar mau beli baju ama celana biar dapet apapun itu ataupun ini tulisan terahir gue gak ada yang tau juga toh ini blog juga gak ada yang nge view gitu. Ehmm gue lsgi dengerin Blink 182 yang baru sekarang anyway buat cataan harian ajasih.
Mana ada yang nyelametin gue,hidup aja ga jelas gini ngetik di keyboard aja tangan kiri masih di huruf A ennggg lumayan lah menikamati nyawa selagi ada toh kehidupan ini hanyalah Fana if u know what
emmm bye

G.L.E.A.N

i never closed in thought forever me and you
its too dark and too late
calling me now

just pretending whenever i see on you
my self be silent and better off dead
so pathetic in front of you
Where do I start?
How do I begin to describe the way
I mistake every shadow

open the window hey (everyday everynight)
And this town seems so deceased without you
yeah well be okay ( so i get mistake )
got stumbling head and cheers up boy

i hope you'll understand how i run from the holocaust
knock on your door and i feel so empty
the town on the wane so disappeared i had too long
have still not send postcard you even everywhere
knock on your door again

people said im just the lost boy
people said im just the lost boy
on my own

One Hundred Miles In Hours

Can't Help Falling In Love

i'm already missing you
but not
you're so far
feel like kinda to be honest
but everythings can't be okay
just remembering you smile
but you
i don't know
i swim in ocean deep
dissapear in darkness
gonna losing you
i like you thinking out
i'm falling in love with you ?
ah kidding suck it
you love him
i am a just boy with bonny knees
i'm so sad

How To Save My Life

i throw some problem into the moon before i die , may i..
one know would be i die strays me down oh you again
you again always follow me since 2011 or 2010 ah kidnap that
who that's person just kinda suck in 99 miles away from here
true s.e.l.f

i love the city
gotta back the town
from black hair reissue
palm beach and never give up
am coming on south ya really south

i didn't matter im not selfish but ya
got a horrible date in nightmare and make dreams come true
bad future
i am gonna wrecking up
my home
and turn on the lamp
i am kinda be a superheroes

now im in college
in last years
forward growing pains
pull that matter
met new friends but anywhere at least
crawling into night.. do that! im alive
so back in time i think be a really cool
not really one things in depressed diary
empty bottle

can't save myself

Hmmm oke deh... EDM lagi merjalela ya sekarang terusss lagu nigga nge swag? makin kedengeran di MTV and then.... gue cuma liat rock n roll (dikit sih) dari 5sos sama the vamps eeehh... whaattt the vamps?? yaa bisa dibilang mereka salah satu versi band jaman sekarang  yekaannn?? duh pengen deh balik kemasa dimana rock and soul atau entah itu metal atau apapun laaahh , oh god bring me back to 2009 :( ini adalah menulis tanpa arah jadi ini namanya crumble decision dimana sebuah posting yang mengandung unsur flash or future tapi semua ceritanya penuh arti yaa itu adalah keteranagn dari sebuah spoiler okaayyy nambah pengetahuan kan :)

can i make the band today? 
wherever everyone get Dj's and dance in every party
i am gonna wreck even the girls
where is rock music? oh god i just found out THE 1975 and The Neighbourhood on TV playback
what a mess? this is future? or something count on less
becoming on majesty people what a kinda suck in morning weird
i want a f.r.i.e.n.d.s i want a band yeah real marcing story 

hmmm mungkin semua karna pertumbuhan yang gak kurang kurang atau bisa disebut masyrakat sekarang (even around the world) hanya melihat apa yang mereka ingin lihat di masa sekolahnya , 'club alcohol and dope' di jalur yang bener bener salah ah man apakah semua berlalu secepat ini sehongga terlambat bagi generasi 1990- buat memulai something new. Enggak!! bajingan kita hanya manusia yang termakan hidup di dunia buktinya masi ada band atau beberapa anak yang masih ingin rock n roll yaa sekalipun itu cuman buat nge fans sama si alex turner hmmm,oh iya gue juga gabung di AMYK gausa dijelasin itu apa.
Dan ini gue pengen deh punya percakapan yang keren kaya gini :

Me   : hey man do you want making some tones?
Fuck: oh sure that's punkrock music?
Me   : emmm more awesome
Fuck: eeeeh what
Me   : R&B got a punk in band version
Fuck: what yours gear dude?
Me   : annoying vocal ^^
Fuck: and me?
Me   :be a yourself and used any equipment for wars
Fuck: Looking for another person guys
Me   : Yup!! eeh buy some ciggarete and beers okay
Fuck: going up sir

Itu salah satu percakapan keren yang gue idamkan saat semua menjadi keren walau sesaat haha.
aaaah okay semua akan baik"aja insyaallah semoga saja aaah sudalah lupakan.
sedikit curhat ini gue pacar aja gapunya gimana mau nemuin chemistry buat nge band oiii.. aaah kayanya ini semcam deja vu pas gue SMA 2011 yaaa taun itu diulang aja terus sampe soundtracknya ga abis abis huuh.
Jadi punya visi aja kayanya agak cukup deh bray jadi apa dong yang harus dipunya, temen? ah sial gue kayanya gapunya temen nih ah sudalah hidup macam apa ini.
Padahal ini cuman dunia loh iya just the world has many problem
Please Allah save me before i suicide myself